I wanted to climb the summit of challenges,
attack my way through hardship as solid as granite,
tempt all sorts of peril,
and break through mysteries with science.
I longed to inhale all sorts of experience,
and then explore the labyrinthine ins,
and outs of life that in the end cannot be guessed.
I yearned for possibilities that react with each other,
like the collision of uranium molecules:
binding, multiplying, bursting,
and dispersing in unexpected directions.
I wanted to go to faraway places,
and meet with endless varieties of foreign languages and peoples.
I wished to rove,
finding my direction through reading the stars of constellations.
I wanted to cross fields and deserts,
to be burned by the sun until I blistered,
to be shook by the assaulting wind,
and shrink from being gripped by cold.
I wanted a life that was thrilling,
filled with conquest.
I wanted to live!
To feel the essence of being!
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